One Choice

have you ever thought about how much one choice can really affect something?
So i got this brilliant idea while watching the ever Deep and thoughtful show "One Tree Hill" In this episode there was a Glimpse into "what could have been" people were different, everything all because of a few choices...
The other thing that affected this blogging idea came from a good friend of mine.. we have a long sorted history that goes back to June of 2000.. (Thank God for his memory).. I have been wondering more so recently .. ( he got sent to live FAR AWAY) and it has affected me more than i thought it ever would.. with long sporadic phone calls and even more sporadic conversations about this very topic.. SO in every life (well maybe not EVERY one) but in mine and in most i have found there is that one event or decision.. something big potentially life changing, that perhaps if u had made a different choice your life would be going in a totally different direction??

We have talked about (or really he has let me babble on) about what might have been. We have plated the What if game a time or two as well. The part about this whole thing that makes me the most sad is the fact that "what could have been" is all on my head. I CHOSE wrong... He was there, we had a great thing from the min we met.. however being young and naive i chose the guy i thought was for lack of better words.."Cooler".. he had the more exciting job, he was closer, he was older, and in a way he was hotter.. This particular boy has been dubbed "the bad guy" through the years.. He was like a young border-line infatuation for me... so anyway back to the subject at hand.. Boy A (He is referred to among friends as "the Bonehead") we have remained friends through the years.. seeing each other here and there at various functions, and camping trips.. We fought.. we didn't speak.. he went to fight in a war.. now we are back to being as good as we can be.. So through all of this we have been talking about choices... I wonder what might have been had i chose the "nice guy" where would i be? what would i be doing? would we still be together ? would we be happy? and then as my ADD Brain likes to work,, i started thinking about how much one choice can affect not just yourself but an infinite number of people around you...like all the people i have met in the last 4 years.. what have i done to make their life take on a different direction? i am not talking anything life changing but what sort of chain of events have i been a part of? If you start thinking about all the little things that have happened and the chain of people that have been affected by a simple event it starts to become quite a large Number!

I have no ending or conclusion my blogging mojo is gone.. :(