myspace blogs
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
r you serious?
Current mood: curious
Category: Romance and Relationships
so boys... What can I say cant liven with them cant strangle them!! So yeah Good ol Hooligan, now we aren't Technically anything more than friends and trying to explain our "relationship" to Bookstore boy last night made me realize just how complicated (? not the right word but the closes one I can think of) our "whatever it is" actually is. Ok here is the quick lowdown, we have been friends for a while like 6 mo or so, he is one of jess's BF friends and they all come up just about every weekend to ride their dirtbikes and drink beer and pretend to be manly. So we all have known each other a while, but anyway so yeah we a few weeks ago started something... I dunno what u call it, it isn't hooking up but not dating either. So anyway right from the get go before anything ever happened I explained I DON"T want a relationship or a Boyfriend out of this, I like you but I am working on ME. Plus I knew his stuff and he has a lot going on in his head and he felt the same so all is good...Well of course we talked everyday at least 2wice a day most of the time 3 and I would see him like 2-3 times a week. So in explaining this to bookstore boy his conclusion was we have a monogamous relationship minus the actual title. Since I would stop anything and everything if he were to have other friends (not out of jealousy but just out of the disease factor and the whole not my thing) and if I were to be seeing or anything with anyone else he would LOOSE it. So yeah, I met his parents already know some of his friends, so on and so forth. So yesterday I don't really hear from him all day no biggie whatever, he calls when he gets off work starts venting about the Shit of a day he had and somewhere in the venting throws in we are moving really fast then continues on... OK strange he hangs up in a wired voice/tone too but whatever chalk it up to a bad day. Anyway I don't hear from him until tonight when again he is in a crap mood and is Fishing for me to be mad, "r u mad?", "I can tell your mad", ur irritated aren't you" I am like why am I mad again?? I was a little confused as to y I am supposed to be mad. Apparently it is because he hasn't talked to me much lately all this while I am at work and bossman and jess and one of the LO's (loan officers) are all in our tiny office and the phone is on speaker, so I only get about every 5th word that and I'm not really paying attention... So i dunno what all else he said he went on about his day and what he was doing tonight, I dunno. Anyway he tells me to call him later since I am only sporadically muttering yeah's and no's and What?. So anyway that leads me to a mere hour or so ago I call him and the first thing out of his mouth: "so how pissed off are you" I'm Not. I explain I understand he has a lot of stuff going on we had this talk WAY before anything ever happened. Do what u need to do I don't want u to feel like u HAVE to call me to which he responds frantically NO NO that isn't it I do want to and it is kinda freaking me out bla bla bs Weenie talk!! So long story short he was at his friends working on an engine and in theory he is calling when he gets home.... So we shall see but the whole funny thing to me is I am not Crushed or mad or anything really I told him I would be sad yeah bummed yeah but I'll get over it! I wont be heartbroken or crushed. But anyway another day another drama.. There was more to it but this is long enough without the other random piddly drama........
r you serious?
Current mood: curious
Category: Romance and Relationships
so boys... What can I say cant liven with them cant strangle them!! So yeah Good ol Hooligan, now we aren't Technically anything more than friends and trying to explain our "relationship" to Bookstore boy last night made me realize just how complicated (? not the right word but the closes one I can think of) our "whatever it is" actually is. Ok here is the quick lowdown, we have been friends for a while like 6 mo or so, he is one of jess's BF friends and they all come up just about every weekend to ride their dirtbikes and drink beer and pretend to be manly. So we all have known each other a while, but anyway so yeah we a few weeks ago started something... I dunno what u call it, it isn't hooking up but not dating either. So anyway right from the get go before anything ever happened I explained I DON"T want a relationship or a Boyfriend out of this, I like you but I am working on ME. Plus I knew his stuff and he has a lot going on in his head and he felt the same so all is good...Well of course we talked everyday at least 2wice a day most of the time 3 and I would see him like 2-3 times a week. So in explaining this to bookstore boy his conclusion was we have a monogamous relationship minus the actual title. Since I would stop anything and everything if he were to have other friends (not out of jealousy but just out of the disease factor and the whole not my thing) and if I were to be seeing or anything with anyone else he would LOOSE it. So yeah, I met his parents already know some of his friends, so on and so forth. So yesterday I don't really hear from him all day no biggie whatever, he calls when he gets off work starts venting about the Shit of a day he had and somewhere in the venting throws in we are moving really fast then continues on... OK strange he hangs up in a wired voice/tone too but whatever chalk it up to a bad day. Anyway I don't hear from him until tonight when again he is in a crap mood and is Fishing for me to be mad, "r u mad?", "I can tell your mad", ur irritated aren't you" I am like why am I mad again?? I was a little confused as to y I am supposed to be mad. Apparently it is because he hasn't talked to me much lately all this while I am at work and bossman and jess and one of the LO's (loan officers) are all in our tiny office and the phone is on speaker, so I only get about every 5th word that and I'm not really paying attention... So i dunno what all else he said he went on about his day and what he was doing tonight, I dunno. Anyway he tells me to call him later since I am only sporadically muttering yeah's and no's and What?. So anyway that leads me to a mere hour or so ago I call him and the first thing out of his mouth: "so how pissed off are you" I'm Not. I explain I understand he has a lot of stuff going on we had this talk WAY before anything ever happened. Do what u need to do I don't want u to feel like u HAVE to call me to which he responds frantically NO NO that isn't it I do want to and it is kinda freaking me out bla bla bs Weenie talk!! So long story short he was at his friends working on an engine and in theory he is calling when he gets home.... So we shall see but the whole funny thing to me is I am not Crushed or mad or anything really I told him I would be sad yeah bummed yeah but I'll get over it! I wont be heartbroken or crushed. But anyway another day another drama.. There was more to it but this is long enough without the other random piddly drama........
posted by Your Gal Pal Al at 9:44 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home