hmm thursday

what an interesting day it has turned out to be. hmm... so where to begin, i got to wrok EARLY!! that has never happened!! and no one to be proud was here!! yeah so man drama!! this time a different one!! the new guy we met the other nigh Sarge, yeah turnsout he is the worst one!! i never saw a guy pout so much in my life!! wow all because i was trying to be the good guy and upfront right from the get go. Yes i have a "fake BF" and he was told even when i am just dating someone i am ONLY with them. if he wants skeez around then see ya! so yeah anyway no message yet from funny guy. he was going to be busy today :( this really sucks, i really dont like not talking to him!! i dunno how this will end up, it is kind of interesting to see, i know i will be sad if it ends badly. There was something else that kind of ended badly today... Sarge guy apparantly thought that we were going to become something i am not sure what. He started getting a little carried away withthe uniform thing and what not so i bit the bullet and told him we were never going to become anything other than friends. well wow that set off a bad reaction. i think if he could yell online he would be!! OMG [16:43] cacowchik_99: i dont want to be a mood killeri just need to be upfront i guess because i had an incedent a few months ago with some other guy this what we are isnt going to be more than friends

[16:44] sgtbradleygh: ah....so....there would never be anything more than friends?
[16:44] cacowchik_99: probably not
[16:44] cacowchik_99: i have enough boy troubles
[16:44] cacowchik_99: as u read in my blogs
[16:44] sgtbradleygh: well so much for being open minded
[16:44] sgtbradleygh: oh well
[16:44] cacowchik_99: i dont wanna be a mood killer
[16:45] sgtbradleygh: it's ok. Im used to rejection. get it all the time. nothing new for me. life goes on
erased some stuff
[16:47] cacowchik_99: k hold on gotta fax brb
[16:47] sgtbradleygh: personally, I think it's dumb cause if a guy that comes along IS the kinda guy youd want as a BF, that whole situation basically fucks him from ever having a chance
[16:49] cacowchik_99: yeah well he is the guy i want
[16:49] cacowchik_99: so
[16:49] sgtbradleygh: well then have fun with that
[16:49] cacowchik_99: ya knwo what can u do
[16:50] sgtbradleygh: nothing, anything to try would be a waste of time. B UT if he is the guy you want then you need to get over this high school fake BF bullshit and make it a REAL situatoin.
[16:50] sgtbradleygh: cause anyone you meet will think, as I did, that you are still available since youre not "with" him 100%
[16:50] cacowchik_99: techincally i am
[16:51] cacowchik_99: i jsut dont want to be with anyone really

[16:51] sgtbradleygh: well see you are NOT available. you dont want to be with anyone, but you WANT him. that makes NO sense
[16:51] sgtbradleygh: at all
[16:51] cacowchik_99: yeah it does
[16:51] sgtbradleygh: because if you are available then that means you are not WITH anyone and if you wanna go out wiht someone else you can
[16:51] cacowchik_99: to me it does
[16:51] sgtbradleygh: but you dont
[16:52] sgtbradleygh: so that doesn't make senese
[16:52] cacowchik_99: that doesnt mean i cant
[16:52] cacowchik_99: i dont want to
[16:52] cacowchik_99: not can't
[16:52] sgtbradleygh: but if you dont WANT to go out, then why keep HIM around?
[16:53] cacowchik_99: because he is only around like once or twice a week
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: yeah well that was no different than what I was talking about
[16:53] cacowchik_99: what do u mean
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: I wasn't talking about DATING
[16:53] cacowchik_99: ??
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: nothing. dont worry about it. forget I ever asked
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: keeps it simpler that way
[16:54] cacowchik_99: ok
[16:54] cacowchik_99: anyway i just wanted to be upfront
[16:54] cacowchik_99: this isnt going to go past friends
[16:54] sgtbradleygh: and I will say to you, like I say to every other woman that gives me that line, thanks for nothing.
[16:55] cacowchik_99: i never said this would go anywhere
[16:56] cacowchik_99: what do u mean that line?
[16:57] sgtbradleygh: what do I mean? I mean Im good enough to talk to, good enough to be cute in uniform, and good enough to be a FRIEND, but never good enough for anythingmore. i get it ALL the time.
[16:57] sgtbradleygh: so it's nothing new.
[16:57] sgtbradleygh: honestly its why I dont meet people anymore, and why I dont go out anymore
[16:57] cacowchik_99: what is wrong with that?
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: I get tired of hearing the same old shit
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: thats why
[16:58] cacowchik_99: u dont want friends?
[16:58] cacowchik_99: u just want to "pamp"?
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: no I do NOT want just sex
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: but I dont want JUST friends either
[16:58] cacowchik_99: well then sorry
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: id LIKE someone who is open to MORE, but cool with starting as friends
[16:58] cacowchik_99: didnt mean to do that
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: like anyone else
[16:59] cacowchik_99: i never planned on anything other than just being friends
[16:59] sgtbradleygh: ah, but you yourself said "we'll see" when I said what if we were into one anohter
[16:59] cacowchik_99: that was the whole "NON" date
[16:59] sgtbradleygh: so what was that? to make me feel good?
[16:59] sgtbradleygh: yeah , ok sure, I imagined that
[16:59] cacowchik_99: no
[17:01] cacowchik_99: i like talking to you i do i think ur nice but i didnt have that "attraction:" (?) i guess i dunno how to say it
[17:02] sgtbradleygh: of course not. no one has that "attraction" to me. Im an unattractive nice guy. so I will forever be stuck in the friend zone...well Id rather have no friends than to be told Im not good enough. so take care
[17:02] cacowchik_99: OMG

so yeah another one bites the dust!! i dunn oif u dont know anyone in town y would u rather have NO friends and a Poss Gf rather than friends?? that is a new one on me! Strange Strange