my birthday cont.....

so.. the festivities continued, with sat... sat 80's party sat, spent the afternoon shopping by myslef !! thanks Poop!! so she was on the phone while i was at the store, saw a poofy prom/bridemaid dress i really wanted wear but it had too many visible stains . so i settled for some legging type pants!! OH i forgot there were these GOLD!! MC hammer pants!! had i had something to wear with them i would have bought them!!. so i find a mini skirt, i will have pictures one day..so Poop and her friend came over, i finished gettign ready, and we went out.. we were early so we offered to help, this is where we all come to learn about the OCD i have!! i was not even fully fully aware of it till that night. people start coming, i am still streaming, i didnt find out till yesterday that wearing a mini-skirt that i was TOLD covered my ass and hanging up streamers is NOT a good combo! so anyway the party went on, more random people, i drank and drank and drank the special punch and NOTHING not a buzz !! So sad that was my only goal for the evening was to get toasty, never happened. so even though i wasnt toasty i still have no judgement or common sense when it comes to doing the no no. Even though i didnt really want to i agreed to go upstairs with someone Dum, i feel soo bad for many reasons,first Hooligan, even though technically we arent anything i know he would be done if he found out, and vice versa if he did this with some random chick in havasu i would be done, and 2 it wasnt that good, (this will come back to play), it was awkward,i was TIRED, yeah overal not good. so anyway the party was fun for the most part, Sun was starting out as a boring day untill i get a phone call from Jess crying, Buddy one of her horses had died! this was tragic for many reason's 1) he was young only 7 or 8, 2) it was a FREAK thing that never in a million years could u have thought somethign like that could have happened. So after a fight with the body hauler guy he was on his way and so was i to acton. After that was all taken care of i went back home. Mon was meant for cleaning, untill lovely Brian called so we (poop and I) could meet him for lunch and catch up and compare. so yeah he now knows in great detail my anatomy, and felt the need to describe it to me NOT FUNNY!!! also not funny was that the day before i had found out that apparently Party boy was a VIRGIN!!! OMG!!!!!! Who in this day and age is 21 and a VIRGIN???? so yeah, i almost threw up felt sick all day sun then the horse thing, and now writing this i feel sick again, and THANK GOD i wasnt at Barnes when Brian Felt the Need to Announce to EVERYONE there that Party Boy losthis V. GREAT to the girl that you could see her ass when she was hanging up streamers! YAY what a way to be remembered - back to cleaning!!! untill way late, finally realized the time, went up tp acton and talked to hooligan most of his drive back from havisu, i even got him to make a detour only slight about 5 miles out of his way!! It was worth it!! so i finally got ot bed after 3 in the morn when he got home. today soo sleepy!! boring, funny guy not so funny today!! it was me not his fault!! i am too sleepy. ok going now!

Currently listening:
To Love Again
By Chris Botti
Release date: By 18 October, 2005

My birthday so far..

so far my birthday has been intersting.... starting yesterday (fri) apparently it was ex-bf day. i get a call from mr moon, just a littel quick just called to say hello. We plan on meeting in June!! (hee hee this is funny because we only live like 5 miles from each other)!!, ACB calls (not an ex) and comes by to drop off my present. THANK YOU for not getting me anythign living!! u see last year he go tme Boo! while i LOve the little assface i am trying to limit my pet intake, THe 2 dogs i have now, ENTIRELY his fault!! Flower i got because he pointed her out, he felt that i needed two deaf dogs instead of one. THANKS!! then The puppy i blame on him since we went there (jamie and I) to visit him but he wasnt there, we were leaving and there were these three adorable Heeler puppies!! Just what i had been wanting, Heelers with No tails!! so of course i put a name on one, Yeah THIS WAS YOUR FAULT!! SO he gave me ENTIRLEY TOOO MUCH!!!! THANKS YOU!!! i can;t say it enough!! anyway later on i get a call from Hooligan being loud and obnoxious lovley. At least he isnt in jail or badly injured!! Ok so on the way to citywalk My most recent ex calls!! wtf?? i mean really? while i am glad they all called it was just a little strange and i tried my hardest not to pick a fight even though it was just nagging me to. but i was good!! so at saddle ranch we had a few drinks, with our VIP body guard Don Juan hee he, and watched people fall off the bull pretty entertaining, jess and i got some shot of who knows what for my b-day Thank you bartender man! then they decide to go to the nudey booty. while i dont mind going to the nudey booty i am happy in the back area where i can send mean signals with my eyes unnoticed, NOOOO they decide to tell them it is my b-day DAMMIT!!! that means i get to get ON-STAGE with all the girls lap dancing, NOT FUN!! i dont need that many boobies up in my face i have my own thank you!! and i must say the quality of girls not as i had hoped. there were one or two that were ok the rest i might as well have been up there. But hey i got a t-shirt!! earlier in the day during my shopping expedition i get these pj pants that are AWESOME!!! they have my favorite sayiing on them: Gold Digger: Like a Hooker but smarter!!! YEAH!!! so i had to purchase them!! so overall it has been pretty good, i got to leave work at noon!! YAY got paid and all that wonderful Boobage was in my face Go me!! on a sadder note, i went to the northridge mall after work and saw a pet store-now nothing makes me ANGRIER than seeing these sick, worm infested puppies in cages with not enough ventilation and WAY too small for half of them. But what REALLY irked me was the boxer puppy they had, he was WHITE!! this is not a good color and they try to sell them as rare, 90% of the time they are deaf and have other problems, this poor 2 mo old puppy already ahd skin issues, his tail wich was 2 digits TOO long had hair missing. Now i had a white boxer and while i LOVED Mae Whitee more than anything i DO not rec this for anyone unless they plan on spending OODles of $$ on them, ALlergies,sensativity,sunburns, cancer and deafness are the MOST common things that affect them. why try to sell it for $800 in a pet store??? U got me. Oh it just REALLY rubs me wrong seeing all those dogs in there!! so nwo i am mad again thinking about this!! it is almsot 4 in the morning i need to be asleep!! so that is where i am trying to go. tomrow should be better the PARTY of the YEAR!!! BABIES OF THE 80'S YEAH!!! 80's themed party soo excited can't wait!!!!

hmm thursday

what an interesting day it has turned out to be. hmm... so where to begin, i got to wrok EARLY!! that has never happened!! and no one to be proud was here!! yeah so man drama!! this time a different one!! the new guy we met the other nigh Sarge, yeah turnsout he is the worst one!! i never saw a guy pout so much in my life!! wow all because i was trying to be the good guy and upfront right from the get go. Yes i have a "fake BF" and he was told even when i am just dating someone i am ONLY with them. if he wants skeez around then see ya! so yeah anyway no message yet from funny guy. he was going to be busy today :( this really sucks, i really dont like not talking to him!! i dunno how this will end up, it is kind of interesting to see, i know i will be sad if it ends badly. There was something else that kind of ended badly today... Sarge guy apparantly thought that we were going to become something i am not sure what. He started getting a little carried away withthe uniform thing and what not so i bit the bullet and told him we were never going to become anything other than friends. well wow that set off a bad reaction. i think if he could yell online he would be!! OMG [16:43] cacowchik_99: i dont want to be a mood killeri just need to be upfront i guess because i had an incedent a few months ago with some other guy this what we are isnt going to be more than friends

[16:44] sgtbradleygh: ah....so....there would never be anything more than friends?
[16:44] cacowchik_99: probably not
[16:44] cacowchik_99: i have enough boy troubles
[16:44] cacowchik_99: as u read in my blogs
[16:44] sgtbradleygh: well so much for being open minded
[16:44] sgtbradleygh: oh well
[16:44] cacowchik_99: i dont wanna be a mood killer
[16:45] sgtbradleygh: it's ok. Im used to rejection. get it all the time. nothing new for me. life goes on
erased some stuff
[16:47] cacowchik_99: k hold on gotta fax brb
[16:47] sgtbradleygh: personally, I think it's dumb cause if a guy that comes along IS the kinda guy youd want as a BF, that whole situation basically fucks him from ever having a chance
[16:49] cacowchik_99: yeah well he is the guy i want
[16:49] cacowchik_99: so
[16:49] sgtbradleygh: well then have fun with that
[16:49] cacowchik_99: ya knwo what can u do
[16:50] sgtbradleygh: nothing, anything to try would be a waste of time. B UT if he is the guy you want then you need to get over this high school fake BF bullshit and make it a REAL situatoin.
[16:50] sgtbradleygh: cause anyone you meet will think, as I did, that you are still available since youre not "with" him 100%
[16:50] cacowchik_99: techincally i am
[16:51] cacowchik_99: i jsut dont want to be with anyone really

[16:51] sgtbradleygh: well see you are NOT available. you dont want to be with anyone, but you WANT him. that makes NO sense
[16:51] sgtbradleygh: at all
[16:51] cacowchik_99: yeah it does
[16:51] sgtbradleygh: because if you are available then that means you are not WITH anyone and if you wanna go out wiht someone else you can
[16:51] cacowchik_99: to me it does
[16:51] sgtbradleygh: but you dont
[16:52] sgtbradleygh: so that doesn't make senese
[16:52] cacowchik_99: that doesnt mean i cant
[16:52] cacowchik_99: i dont want to
[16:52] cacowchik_99: not can't
[16:52] sgtbradleygh: but if you dont WANT to go out, then why keep HIM around?
[16:53] cacowchik_99: because he is only around like once or twice a week
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: yeah well that was no different than what I was talking about
[16:53] cacowchik_99: what do u mean
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: I wasn't talking about DATING
[16:53] cacowchik_99: ??
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: nothing. dont worry about it. forget I ever asked
[16:53] sgtbradleygh: keeps it simpler that way
[16:54] cacowchik_99: ok
[16:54] cacowchik_99: anyway i just wanted to be upfront
[16:54] cacowchik_99: this isnt going to go past friends
[16:54] sgtbradleygh: and I will say to you, like I say to every other woman that gives me that line, thanks for nothing.
[16:55] cacowchik_99: i never said this would go anywhere
[16:56] cacowchik_99: what do u mean that line?
[16:57] sgtbradleygh: what do I mean? I mean Im good enough to talk to, good enough to be cute in uniform, and good enough to be a FRIEND, but never good enough for anythingmore. i get it ALL the time.
[16:57] sgtbradleygh: so it's nothing new.
[16:57] sgtbradleygh: honestly its why I dont meet people anymore, and why I dont go out anymore
[16:57] cacowchik_99: what is wrong with that?
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: I get tired of hearing the same old shit
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: thats why
[16:58] cacowchik_99: u dont want friends?
[16:58] cacowchik_99: u just want to "pamp"?
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: no I do NOT want just sex
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: but I dont want JUST friends either
[16:58] cacowchik_99: well then sorry
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: id LIKE someone who is open to MORE, but cool with starting as friends
[16:58] cacowchik_99: didnt mean to do that
[16:58] sgtbradleygh: like anyone else
[16:59] cacowchik_99: i never planned on anything other than just being friends
[16:59] sgtbradleygh: ah, but you yourself said "we'll see" when I said what if we were into one anohter
[16:59] cacowchik_99: that was the whole "NON" date
[16:59] sgtbradleygh: so what was that? to make me feel good?
[16:59] sgtbradleygh: yeah , ok sure, I imagined that
[16:59] cacowchik_99: no
[17:01] cacowchik_99: i like talking to you i do i think ur nice but i didnt have that "attraction:" (?) i guess i dunno how to say it
[17:02] sgtbradleygh: of course not. no one has that "attraction" to me. Im an unattractive nice guy. so I will forever be stuck in the friend zone...well Id rather have no friends than to be told Im not good enough. so take care
[17:02] cacowchik_99: OMG

so yeah another one bites the dust!! i dunn oif u dont know anyone in town y would u rather have NO friends and a Poss Gf rather than friends?? that is a new one on me! Strange Strange

crazy thursday

hmmm so so far today... i got here EARLY!! buy 30 min!! and my ex tested me! Y i am not sure. i havent talked to him in over a month, actually a minth to the day!! (i checked in my phone!! i am not wierd) my mother called ?? what is going on, i even wrote an actual email type thing to the funny guy! wow must be going crazy, kinda sad even he is not around. Hooligan is gone to havasou left last night. so he gone untill mon, my birthday is Sat yay!!! i and what am i doing?? going to someone elses party!! hee hee butit is an 80's party how can u pass that up?? crimped hair, blue eye shadow and all!!! i got a random message at 3 in the morn from Sarge, i think my new favorite word must be random.

so i took this personality quiz and this is what it says:

Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Cautiousness ... 90%
Materialism... 83%
Peter pan complex ... 83%
Hypersensitivity ... 83%
Romantic ... 76%
Avoidant ... 76%
Histrionic ... 76%
Paranoia ... 76%
Artistic ... 70%
Religious ... 70%
Self absorbed ... 70%
Change averse ... 70%
Vanity ... 70%
Female cliche ... 70%
Dependency ... 63%
Extraversion ... 56%
Hedonism ... 56%
Work ethic ... 56%
Need to dominate ... 56%
Anti-authority ... 56%
Individuality ... 56%
Intellectual ... 50%
Sexuality ... 50%
Accommodation ... 43%
Mystical ... 43%
Narcissism ... 43%
Physical security ... 43%
Orderliness ... 36%
Stability ... 33%
Interdependence ... 30%
Adventurousness ... 30%
Wealth ... 30%
Conflict seeking ... 23%
Physical Fitness ... 17%

Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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i am not to sure how i feel about that i dont even know if this will work or if u will just see random codes that would be fun!! going to try it

May 24, 2006

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Sleep deprivation,Security guards, and cock blocking...
Current mood: crazy
Category: Life


hmmm ..... so this may be a long rambling add type of blog. i have only slept for two hours out of the past 48. I do not reccomend this!! where to begin. it has been a while and i dont remmebr the last one so i may repeat myself... Yesterday Jamie and i went to dog class, again Lucy the Beagle Not so beagle like, she didnt want her bait, and she wasnt very cooperative. I may trade her for a pug!! Now how to tell Aunt Liz..... after handling class Hooligan calls, and we get in a fake fight about him going to havasou (sp) for 5 days with all the T and A that will be flying around, and how he will leave me if i were to go see another dude or something i dunno in the middle of our fake fight (it reallywas fake since we were laughing) I stop and say WAIT we shouldnt even be having this conversation!! and so yeah.. whatever we are, it is good for now. i like not having to worry about what is doing in havasou because it is not my place, that and the fact that he will be too busy doing stupid boy stuff like drinking and riding his bike and going out on the lake to bother i think.. whatever...so yeah on to the next subject....i was looking down at my desk calander today and noticed on May 30th Big E wrote Eat some chinken!! that is Random!! y chicken?? dunno male brains sometimes u just have to not even try. um so back to yesterday.. i am going home and i get a phone call from Brian (not Hooligan Yet another Brian with an I, that makes 3 total in my phone!! ) so he is saved as "Brian!!" He invites Poop and i to go out drinking with him. Sounds fun only plan on staying a little while i have to work in the morning. but that doesnt stop me!! so we go to this random hotel/bar and have a few drinks i mean litterally a couple, Brian is toasted so is his friend Lexi Quite entertaining, while i was trying to order my second drink from the bartender (who was quite cute i might add) he kept wwalking by. some other random dude bought whatever i wanted since i whine about my birthday so the bartender never remembers!!!! Good Ol Brian saved the day by asking him!! and he got a smile and another drink!! WTF?? I have never in my life been forgotten about at a bar!! and to get cock-blocked by a guy?? something just isnt right here!! we all laughed and laughed about it because according to other eyewitnesses he has "female Friends" ummm yeah... ok sure. but after that and my pouting, and LAUGHING at brian and Lexi since they were toasty we all staretd talking to the security guards the whole 2 of em... yeah that brings me to my next point... Poop and i have this Knack for doing and finding our selves in THE most random situations u can imagine. we got theset wo guys' life stories!! i dunno what happened but we tlaked to them till 4 in the morning!!!! WTF how random is that? they were nice and we were laughing at the young'n trying to be kool and himself do the cockblock thing but he wasnt quite sure how to!! HAA HAA overall very entertaining evening. i drank two drinks and not a buzz for me. something is wrong with that picture. So 2 hours of sleep later i woke up late and had to work all day! now i am in the deliourous crazy state liek a crak whore on Caffene. this brings me to my next point The funny guy! the funny guy is out of town in wash dc and new york since sun i think. So workdays are boring!!!! since poop dissaprears for hours and never comes back to entertain me she is FIRED. so now my days are dull and lifless and i actually look foward the the messages i havebeen getting him while on his trip. i think today was the first one where he was sober!! apparantly he bought me a present! al though in this message he claims he was buzzed but i think he was sloshed. there was also a random I miss u thrown in for good measure. WHile i am not against the whole idea, it made me realize i miss him too! that isnt good, for one he lives in the OC i live in the very northern part of LA co. drive 20 min from my house and u are in Kern Co, Drive 40 E from my house and u are in San Bernadino Co. so the whole distance thing is a problem. iguess really that is the only problem. well throw in the fact i havent actually met him yet and i am messed up in the head so ya know it makes for an interesting relationship. He isnt coming back untill Fri afternoon which means i wont talk to him unitill mon probably a WHOLE week!!! dammit this suks!! they are all gone Hooligan is gone he is gone if not for the security guard/ex-marine (his name is now Sarge) and hooligan talking to me today i may have gone crazy!! I need my Mochi Soulmate COME BACK!! hee hee that was a tad dramatic even for me!! ok so now tha tthis has turned into a novel and not much of what i wanted to cover has been covered i better stop now. Untill next time thank you faithful readers all 2 of you!!!!!!!!!!!



Currently listening:
Stand Still, Look Pretty
By The Wreckers
Release date: By 23 May, 2006

The beer gut song !!!

i only slept 2 hours THNKS GUYS!!!! so forgive me
Current mood: exhausted
Category: Music

ha haa the funniest song!!
D TOP - D... - Da Yoopers Lyrics - Beer Gut Lyrics

1. MY UNCLE HAD A BEER GUT
THAT WEIGHED TWO HUNDRED POUNDS
HE USED A WHEELBARROW
TO HAUL IT INTO TOWN
THEY TREAT HIM LIKE A KING
WHEN HE WALKS INTO WOODYS BAR
HIS BEER GUT PAYS FOR LIGHTS AND HEAT
AND WOODYS BRAND NEW CAR
2. NUDSIE GOT A BEER GUT
THAT GETS BIGGER EVERY YEAR
SINCE NUDSIE GAVE UP LIFTING WEIGHTS
AND STARTING HOISTING BEERS
HE WAS LYING ON THE BEACH ONE DAY
THE SUN KEPT GETTING HOTTER
SOME SAVE THE WHALE FREAKS CAME
AND DRAGGED HIM BACK INTO THE WATER

CHORUS:
BEER GUTS OF AMERICA
STAND UP IF YOU CAN
STICK OUT YOUR BIG BEER GUT
AND HOIST A COOL ONE IN YOUR HAND
YOUR BEER GUT IS YOUR BUDDY
ITS A FRIEND WHO'S ALWAYS NEAR
AND ALL YOU EVER HAVE TO DO
IS FEED IT LOTS OF BEER

3. MUNGO DRANK A PONY KEG
AT DROOPY AHOS WEDDING
HIS EYES WENT ROLLING ROUND AND ROUND
AND THEN HE STARTED SWEATING
HE TRIPPED ON DUCK AND FUZZ
'CAUSE THEY WERE PASSED OUT ON THE FLOOR
HE LANDED ON HIS BEER GUT
AND HE BOUNCED RIGHT OUT THE DOOR

4. I TOOK MY DATE INTO THE SAUNA
AND ON THE BENCH WE SAT
SHE POINTED AND SHE SAID
I NEVER SEEN ONE BIG AS THAT"
SHE HELD IT AND SHE STROKED IT
AND SHE TOLD ME WITH A SMILE
BODY BUILDERS MAKE ME SICK
BUT BEER GUTS DRIVE ME WILD

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Currently listening:
Back to Bedlam
By James Blunt
Release date: By 04 October, 2005

May 22, 2006 again

Monday, May 22, 2006

haa haa it is true what can i say!!
Current mood: crazy
Category: Life

>>>GEMINI<<<
>Nice.
>Love is one of a kind.
>Great listeners
>Very Good in bed.
>Lover not a fighter, but will still punch your lights out.
>Trustworthy.
>Always happy.
>Loud.
>Talkative.
>Outgoin
>Very forgiving
>Loves to make out
>Has a beautiful smile
>Generous
>Strong


Currently listening:
Stand Still, Look Pretty
By The Wreckers
Release date: By 23 May, 2006

May 22, 2006

This weekend ineresting but this blog is not
Current mood: blah
Category: Life


so this weekend..... yeah

well fri night i was drunk dialed! sadly this isnt the first time it has happened, although it was the first time that he has called me this drunk. Sat ran errands boring stuff found out He didnt even remember calling... Nice.. tried to scare him with a story about how we drove to mexico and got married, but i am a horrible liar and it didnt work. Sat evening/night is when the weekend started to get interesting. first whenever the two of us are left with no plans and have to make up our own it is INTERESTING, first i got the bright idea to dye my hair, well not really dye but make the under side blond-ish. now i know i caould NEVER be a blond!!! but i like it! one day if Poop ever regains conciousness i will have a picture of it. so after the bleach and dye from her hair friend our brain, i REALLY wanted to go out, so we end up at the gay bar, she knows the security guard, and the bar tender there, anyway so my first time at a gay bar and i get hit on my a DUDE!! please ... but i dunno it was ever so slightly better than poop who was molested just about by a shim. HEE HEE makes me laugh!!!! And all i can say Melly is i would be on that boy like White on Rice!! so yeah and there was a bar fight but it wasnt really a "fight" the whiny kid got hit once and re-enacted and re-told the story the whole night!! whiney bitch! there were several other people that were going to hit him had this guy not done it. so yeah anyway that night we were out till 4 good time good times, sun, ran more errands, got wild hairs up my ass decided i wanted chalkboard paint, and glow paint, and am going to modify my room a tich, Brian (yet another Brian, that makes 3) called YAY!!!! it was his birthday and we couldnt for the life of us remember his # last night at midnight when he turned 21!!!! so we met him for cofee/tea for me. that was nice then wne t back home to make my hair blonder, cleaned Boo's tank, went to jess's i swear i got more phone calls than i ever have in my life yesterday!! between just Jess and Hooligan! it is a SAD monday for me!! No Funny Guy!! :( the vibe here isnt the same, and now i dont know how i will be entertained all week!!! i am sad!! i may have to really work!! and Hooligan is going to havasou for 5 days, so i really will have no one to BUG!!! and poop is scared she already knows that she alone can not keep me entertained!!. 5 days till my B-DAY!!!! YAY for me i am going to be OLD!!


Currently listening:
How To Save A Life
By The Fray
Release date: By 13 September, 2005

May 20, 2006

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Friday!! yay
Current mood: weird
Category: Life


so yay it's fri!!! (well it was until 45 min ago) This Friday was a very interesting one!! :lets see it all started this mornign with Jess Big E and I ALL sleeping until 8 that has NEVER happened before as either Jess or I and up at the latest by 7. soo all are rushed and the bike never made it home still in Burbank!! So that already dampened the wonderness of Friday!! Then on the way Mr moon calls me totally random haven't heard from him since a few days after the weird night we had. He was on his way to a horse show or something, talked to him for a while. Very strange!! Already and I have only been up for less than 3 hours!! So we get to work at almost 11 (oops) so they goes on and on a few fights with the fax machine, and yelling at the computer that I will kill it if it freezes! In the afternoon during what has no become a daily chats with "the funny guy" We somehow get into a Serious conversation, now this only last for about a half hour but again something not quite right about this whole day. (in case your counting that is 3 wired things). So as we are leaving to go to Burbank to pick up the hay Big Don Juan had to get to save the day for the 500th time, Hooligan out of the blue starts texting! Very odd, it is a lame conversation hey! And What up and a few Dope's thrown in for good measure, so finally I call and ask if he is ok since he is sort of using one word answers. So we talk maybe 10 min, he tells me how he just got really "wigged out" (his words not mine thank you) by his feelings. How he felt he has known me for years, so comfortable, bla bla so on whatever. So some how we get to talking about this whole thing he apologizes for being a dick, and I tell him it is fine, we had this talk a LONG time ago (well a month) and the situation hasn't changed, apparently he thought that since I told him about my "feelings" and he told me about his that all our little rules were going to be forgotten?? I am not quite sure where this conclusion came from, but hopefully now things are a little clearer. We'll see. So we end up on Burbank eating dinner with big e and big don Juan. Followed by traffic on the way home, and on my own way home somehow I get the WORST traffic I have ever seen on the 14. It took me an hour!! To get from Acton to palmdale. That is 20 miles, it took an HOUR, I was about to play Chinese fire drill with myself just to pass the time!! In the end I made it, no fire drill necessary and now I have a million and a half things to do tomorrow and again am I sleeping?? No way had to blog what was one of the strangest Fridays I think I have ever had.

Blog from May 18, 2006 #2

Thursday, May 18, 2006

oh yeah I forgot!!!
Current mood: ditzy
Category: Life


soo I forgot the best part of today!!! I was going into the garage at jess' this morning like I have done a MILLION times before (since I basically live here) and the door opens inward so I stand there open the door and SMACK!!!! I hit myself in the head!!! Now I have a REALLy sore spot on my head!! Nice, so next time u hear someone say they walked into a door they may just be telling the truth!!! So any of you who never believed me when I say I have no depth perception I will remind you of this story!!!!!!!

FYI: while I was never a member of MENSA I WAS a member of GATE!!!! In Jr. High so what happened to me???


Currently listening:
Royal Highness
By Kottonmouth Kings
Release date: By 11 August, 1998

blog from May 18,2006

How hard headed are they??
Current mood: amused
Category: Romance and Relationships


So I am slightly amused at the thought of the random hard headedness (new word #245) of boys. Hooligan and I haven't talked since Tues night I believe (may have been Mon) I am not sure, anyway he came by the office to day so him and Big E could go somewhere. It was a little awkward and wired having him stand there and try to read what I was i.m.'ing to Poop and the "Funny Guy" so I closed the window anyway that is just babble, I get a high five when he leaves -Nice ?? So later (well earlier this evening) I make Big E give me the skinny since I know they talked about it. So here is to the best of my recollection the conversation they had:
Hooligan: So have you talked to her?
Big E: Who?
H: Alix
Big E: Oh, well yeah, we work at the same place and we drive to work together
H: well I just don't know how to tell her I am not ready for a relationship or a gf right now
B. E: Dude she knows, she doesn't want that either, She doesn't care (imagine a slightly irritated tone and the F*bomb a time or two)
H: well I just don't know how to tell her
B. E: Dude, I just told you
And after that I don't really remember but that is the Jist of it. It sounds better when u say it than when u type it. But um yeah.... So while he is telling me this I am Screaming from frustration or something "I TOLD HIM BEFORE WE EVER STARTED ANYTHING!!!! I DON'T WANT A BF AND I DON'T WANT THIS TO BECOME A RELATIONSHIP!!!"
so yeah that was what happened today, anyway don't think I will be hearing from this one anytime soon. Which will make it very awkward when he comes up here on the weekends to ride his dirtbike! HAA HAA (evil laugh) but whatever, I am not mad just curious as to how many times it takes you telling a dude that u don't want that or that your not mad before they get it through their thick heads!!!!
So that is my random rant for the day... Oh I have another one Big E LIED!!!!! I don't get to ride to work on the BIKE!!! I am VERY VERY UPSET by this and must kik his ass!!!!
Oh yeah and apparently Jess and I are wonder twins! I was told today by a Rep of one of our lenders to say this phrase "Wonder Twins Powers Activate...." Only he couldn't finish the phrase, I had to do it for him and all he could come up with was ice bridge!!! So Philipinno Crakker (he is half Phillipino and half White) this is for you!!!
"Wonder Twins Power Activate in the form of an ICE BRIDGE"

Currently listening:
Eyes Open
By Snow Patrol
Release date: By 09 May, 2006

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

yay for survay
Current mood: tired
Category: Quiz/Survey



100 kinda

1. First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Reno

2. Last word you said: bring me breakfast PLEEEAAASSSSEEEE

3. Last song you sang: Jesse Carly SImon

4. Last person you hugged: Poop and Bookstore Boy

5. Last thing you laughed at: The Funny Guy (i laughed with him not at him for the record)

6. Last time you said I dont remember: yesterday

7. Last time you cried: actually cried a few months ago maybe longer

9. What color socks are you wearing: None

10. What's under your bed: oh ... many things, pictures,it is a storage unit under there! i am not even sure

11. What time did you wake up today: 7 ish i was late!!

12. Current taste: the taste of hunger

13. Current hair: it is in a bun-like mop

15. Current annoyance: Insurance Boy talks really LOUD

16. Current longing: breakfast!! i am hungry

17. Current desktop background: a Flower of some kind

18. Current worry: time to grow up :(

19. Current hate: i dont hate, i dont like that word

20. Current favorite article of clothing: the ones that fit me!

21. Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: eyes, personality

22. Last CD that you listened to: Carly Simon, no i think i was listening to cotton mouth kings on the way to work

23. Favorite place to be: outside, riding

24. Least favorite place: right now at the office

25. Time you wake up in the morning: 7 ish

26. If you could play an instrument: i play the piano,flute i need to learn the guitar

27. favorite color: black

28. Do you believe in an afterlife? yeah

29. How tall are you: 5'4" ish not EXactly sure

30. Current favorite word/saying: yeah

31. Favorite book:Stiff,

32. Favorite season: Seasons??? late late spring right before summer

33. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: um. no one really if i dont talk to you anymore there is a reason

36. What is your career going to be like: i am going to be rich!!! and my company will run itself with my little minons

37. How many kids do you want: 0

*HAVE YOU EVER...*

39. Said "I love you" and meant it: Yes

40. Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: yeah mr red fish and i had a very violent relationship. RIP little buddy

41. Been to New York: no

42. Been to Florida: yup

43. Been to California: a time ot two

44. Been to Hawaii: not yet

45. Been to Mexico: yeah, i am no longer able to drink tequilla

46. Been to China: Korea that is close.

48. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: no that would be scary if my crazy dreams came true!!!

52. Do you have a crush on someone: um curiosity more than crush

53. What book are you reading now? blogs! hee hee like little mini novels

54. Worst feeling in the world: getting kiked in the face by a horse that was pretty painful!! oh yeah and that whole heart breaking stuff that suks too

55. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? 5 more min, how do i shut this thing up

56. How many rings before you answer: depends on who is calling

57. Future daughter's name: i cant even name my girl dog that i have had for 8 months!!

58. Future son's name: senor jefe

59. What do you sleep with? all my clothes i have yet to put away

61. Wish were here: i wish i were home

63. Piercings: ears tongue belly button

*THE EXTRA STUFF*

64. Do you do drugs: I say nope to Dope and all others

65. Do you drink: spritzer, one or two a month

67. What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: garnier long and strong

68. What are you most scared of: failure

69. What clothes do you sleep in: usually my unmentionables

70. Who is the last person that called you: Jess at 6 30 this morning!

71. Where do you want to get married: outside

72. If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: more assertive and outgoing

73. Who do you really hate: i dont use that word

74. Been In Love: close enough

75. Are you timely or always late: i am always late and i dont like it

76. Do you have a job: yea, i have joined the office squad sad i know

77. Do you like being around people: only certain ones

Best feeling in the world: happiness and comfort

80. Are you a health freak: i need to be

81. Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: um no they have all been different i thnk

82. Do you want someone you don't have? not really i always get what i want hee hee

83. Are you lonely right now: nope

84. Ever afraid you'll never get married: nope

85. Do you want to get married: i want a formal party

86. Do you want kids? no

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

87. Cried: Nope

88. Bought Something: Gas that was a sad day

89. Gotten Sick: nope not yet

90. Sang: yes

91. Said I Love You: Nope

92. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: Nope

93. Met Someone: i meet peopel everyday

94. Moved On: i had nothing to move on from

95. Talked To Someone: Yes.

96. Had A Serious Talk: um half way

97. Missed Someone: felt a tinge but it is gone now

98. Hugged Someone: Poop and Bookstore boy

99. Yelled at Someone: i yell in my car while attemting to make it sound liek singing!

100. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Nope


Currently listening:
Reflections: Carly Simon's Greatest Hits
By Carly Simon
Release date: By 04 May, 2004

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

r you serious?
Current mood: curious
Category: Romance and Relationships

so boys... What can I say cant liven with them cant strangle them!! So yeah Good ol Hooligan, now we aren't Technically anything more than friends and trying to explain our "relationship" to Bookstore boy last night made me realize just how complicated (? not the right word but the closes one I can think of) our "whatever it is" actually is. Ok here is the quick lowdown, we have been friends for a while like 6 mo or so, he is one of jess's BF friends and they all come up just about every weekend to ride their dirtbikes and drink beer and pretend to be manly. So we all have known each other a while, but anyway so yeah we a few weeks ago started something... I dunno what u call it, it isn't hooking up but not dating either. So anyway right from the get go before anything ever happened I explained I DON"T want a relationship or a Boyfriend out of this, I like you but I am working on ME. Plus I knew his stuff and he has a lot going on in his head and he felt the same so all is good...Well of course we talked everyday at least 2wice a day most of the time 3 and I would see him like 2-3 times a week. So in explaining this to bookstore boy his conclusion was we have a monogamous relationship minus the actual title. Since I would stop anything and everything if he were to have other friends (not out of jealousy but just out of the disease factor and the whole not my thing) and if I were to be seeing or anything with anyone else he would LOOSE it. So yeah, I met his parents already know some of his friends, so on and so forth. So yesterday I don't really hear from him all day no biggie whatever, he calls when he gets off work starts venting about the Shit of a day he had and somewhere in the venting throws in we are moving really fast then continues on... OK strange he hangs up in a wired voice/tone too but whatever chalk it up to a bad day. Anyway I don't hear from him until tonight when again he is in a crap mood and is Fishing for me to be mad, "r u mad?", "I can tell your mad", ur irritated aren't you" I am like why am I mad again?? I was a little confused as to y I am supposed to be mad. Apparently it is because he hasn't talked to me much lately all this while I am at work and bossman and jess and one of the LO's (loan officers) are all in our tiny office and the phone is on speaker, so I only get about every 5th word that and I'm not really paying attention... So i dunno what all else he said he went on about his day and what he was doing tonight, I dunno. Anyway he tells me to call him later since I am only sporadically muttering yeah's and no's and What?. So anyway that leads me to a mere hour or so ago I call him and the first thing out of his mouth: "so how pissed off are you" I'm Not. I explain I understand he has a lot of stuff going on we had this talk WAY before anything ever happened. Do what u need to do I don't want u to feel like u HAVE to call me to which he responds frantically NO NO that isn't it I do want to and it is kinda freaking me out bla bla bs Weenie talk!! So long story short he was at his friends working on an engine and in theory he is calling when he gets home.... So we shall see but the whole funny thing to me is I am not Crushed or mad or anything really I told him I would be sad yeah bummed yeah but I'll get over it! I wont be heartbroken or crushed. But anyway another day another drama.. There was more to it but this is long enough without the other random piddly drama........

Myspace Blogs

I have decided to repost my myspace blogs on here just so that they may be a little more permanent
Here is # 1, well as i asuspected they dont save them!! so my wonderfull first blog has been lost in cyberspace!!



May 16, 2006

If my love life were a song!
Current mood: amused
Category: Romance and Relationships

Jesse - Carly Simon

Oh mother, say a prayer for me
Jesse's back in town, it won't be easy
Don't let him near me
Don't let him touch me
Don't let him please me

CHORUS:
Jesse, I won't cut fresh flowers for you
Jesse, I won't make the wine cold for you
Jesse, I won't change the sheets for you
I won't put on cologne
I won't sit by the phone for you

Annie, keep reminding me
That he cut out my heart like a paper doll
Sally, tell me once again
How he set me up just to see me fall

CHORUS

Jesse, quick come here
I won't tell a soul
Not even myself
Jesse, that you've come back to me
My friends will all say "She's gone again'
But how can anyone know what you are to me
That I'm in heave again because you've come back to me - Oh Jessie!

Jesse, I'll always cut fresh flowers for you
Jesse, I'll always make the wine cold for you
Jesse, I can easily change my mind about you
And put on cologne
And sit by the phone for you

Jesse, let's open the wine
And drink to the heart
Which has a will of it's own
My friends, let's comfort them
They're feeling bad
They think I've sunk so low

Jesse, I'll always cut fresh flowers for you
Jesse, I'll always make the wine cold for you
Jesse, I will change the sheets for you
Put on cologne
And I will wait by the phone for you - Oh Jesse!

boys wtf?? (written over 2 days) became something else entireley

so because everyone and thier mother is on myspace i kind of have to limit a little bit whati talk about. everyone is already in code but you know. i really shoudnt care because afterall i did put a disclaimer, but in reality it is my life and if things are bothering me then people need to know. i do have to pat myself on the back though because i have gotten about a million and a half time better at this than i was. so anyway back on track boys! Somewhere on my forhead must be a sign that says: "if u are currently expiercin mental difficulties then please by all means call me!!" Especially lately, It all started probably a good month or two ago.... SO my friend ACB, he means well he does however..... it is sort of borderline stalking?? maybe, his actions are coming across more creepy than nice and thoughtful.. how do u tell someone other than the way i did which was something like:"we are never going to be more than friends. and it got wierd and u need to take it down a notch because the chance of U and Me is 0" I mean really that is pretty sef-explanitory there! i dont want to hurt the guys feelings or make it anymore of an uncomfortable situation but calling at least 2 times a day with at least 2 text'sinbetween a tad much especially when u aren't dating tha person. Now if i were dating a dude and he called and stuff that much i wuold really enjoy it but we arent he knows we never will, turning into creepy. so anyway that is the ongoing battle with that, dont know do i ignore him? but then that will hurt hius little feelings, but i make the mistake of answering the phone the for the next three days it is nonstop calling and such i dunno. i dont not want to be his friend buti dont want a stalker.

so why does this want to work now?? this is my dog that has no name!!

burns!! cant load a picture how lame am i

i am lame!! hee hee will try again at home! there is the link above though
So this is what happens when u dont wear sun screen and u spend the ENTIRE day outside wearing gloves! not a very good picture since it was taken off my phone this morning but u get the idea just times the red by liek 100 and slight tinge of purple and the white part is pretty accurate!! WEAR SUNSCREEN~~ it hurts to move lay down wear clothes everything,

So this is what happens when u dont wear sun screen and u spend the ENTIRE day outside wearing gloves! not a very good picture since it was taken off my phone this morning but u get the idea just times the red by liek 100 and slight tinge of purple and the white part is pretty accurate!! WEAR SUNSCREEN~~ it hurts to move lay down wear clothes everything,

blogging

hmm.... trying to blog but cant think here soo much stress in the office not good for my creative flow....